Basically since February (it's been that long??) I have just been working, learning to be a nurse, and trying to survive until December (graduation!).
I am so blessed to have my job and I do realize this everyday. I am thankful beyond measure that I work in the ICU and I get to learn so much and see such intense stuff that I am really interested in. I don't envy my friends' tech jobs at all that consist of only bathing patients, helping them to the bathroom, and taking vitals.
That said, I HATE working full time nights and trying to go to nursing school full time. It is easily the hardest thing I've ever done and I seriously wonder at the beginning of every week if I'll be able to survive yet another week of this. I feel like all my posts on twitter or Facebook are complaining so I try not to post much at all. Most days I'm going between 24-40 hours without sleep, thanks to going straight from working all night to school or to watch C or to clinical, and then sometimes back to work. Ugh, it's just horrible.
One day in the future I can come back to this and see how hard I worked and know it was worth it, and that's what keeps me going. That and remembering that my momma paid her own way through medical school with a 5 year old by working every hour she wasn't in school and taking me to class and clinic with her. I learned from the most dedicated woman there ever was so I know I can do it!
I am happy to say that I am one test and one clinical away from being in my very last semester! That means only 12 more days at the hospital, 32 more days of class, and one licensing exam and I'll be an RN! It can't come soon enough.
In other news, I keep myself sane by planning our future wedding (thinking I'll be getting a ring any day now ;)) and decorating our future home on Pinterest (there's no time for decorating the home we actually live in!), and reading some books on kindle in my very limited spare time. And also spending every possible moment with M I can get, which is sometimes only once every three days. I feel like the song Time is Love by Josh Turner is the story of my life right now! Any second that I'm not at work or school or watching C or absolutely needing sleep, I'm rushing home to spend as much time with M as possible! I sure do miss him lately.
We also got a new puppy! I wasn't convinced that it was the best time for a new puppy, but M wasn't taking no for an answer, haha. She's a German Shepard named Reese and she's clumsy and funny and cute, most of the time. It's so weird having a big dog! I've had small or medium sized dogs for the past 18 years and she isn't even close to big yet but she seems SO BIG to me!
We are moving into a new apartment in two months since our lease is up where we live now and I can't wait! We had all but decided to stay with M's parents for three or four months until we'd graduated and gotten jobs but it was just going to be hard with the pups. And then we were blessed with the perfect place falling right into our laps for the best price and we are so happy and can't wait to move. I'm pretty darn excited to decorate it, and actually follow through this time since I will have some free time in my life in the near future.
Here's hoping my next post comes before five more months have passed!
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